yknow the funny thing is

i never really had a chance anyway.

there was never any money to begin with. hah. how could i possibly have thought that i could have had that life? the foreign education, the perks, the beautiful city? initially i thought – wow i’ve made the right choice. but that line of thinking presupposed that i had a choice in the first place. this is the right choice because it is the only choice; the rest never really mattered in the first place.

this is the year of brutal truth. better start getting used to this reality.