is for life to behave itself. not be so fucking unruly.
is for me to not hate myself this much
is for my skin to get better
is for people to like me (real me)
is to not pretend so much
is to leave (to not feel like I don’t have options)
is new york
(i feel like this might be hormone-fuelled)
is to not be such an idiot
is to attract some dudes
is a love story
is something to love
is to get stronger
is to be happier
my life is ebbing away
“I have put all of my effort into things that never wanted me back, in hopes that I could change the outcome. How else can I communicate this? I do not want to try anything, with anyone, anymore.”
wow. freaking. wow.
after the incredible madness that has been my college applications process. decided to save myself from hefty student loans and save my parents from not being able to afford things they want by staying local. got into both law schools so i’m now facing the very happy problem of not being able to choose. guess i’ll be spending the rest of my life in black and white now 🙂 / 😦 ? not sure how i feel about this. its a rock solid profession, just… my heart isn’t in this! all i want to do is go to america. don’t really want to study anything. but its alright. practicality/ cost >>>>> everything. dreams falter under pressure and i don’t want to go there just for the place. just for america’s sake its really not worth it at all.
i’ll soft river my way to freedom i suppose 🙂
so pressing issues of the time are now—-
1. uncommit from CMU
2. choose a law school
3. get fitter in preparation for law school
4. apply for housing 🙂